I wrote my testimony about 3 year ago now. At that time, I was sharing how that God changed my heart, and I am no longer a homosexual. I’d like to take a few moments to share how the journey has progressed.
By God’s grace, I am now solid in my recovery. The 1st week of November, I received my 5 year sobriety chip from Celebrate Recovery! That in-and-of-itself is nothing short of a miracle! I value my recovery even more now, and I protect it. I need God. I also need relationships with men and women. I’m learning what it means to be a husband and father. I’m learning how to live as a member of the Body of Christ.
I no longer have toxic shame, nor do I feel the need to constantly defend myself. God has taken away my sin, forgiven me, and He calls me His son. He’s not ashamed of me, and if another person has a problem with the way in which I used to live my life, they need to take that up with God.
Having lived through clergy sexual abuse and then been involved with homosexuality, I have many reasons that I could feel ashamed. But. . . . that was the old me, that was a totally different person. These situations laid the backdrop for some of the most painful, gut-wrenching experiences that occurred in my life. However, out of great pain comes great depth of character. I no longer regret the past, nor am I afraid of the future. I try to live in the now of today as much as possible. These aren’t just words, but they are new messages that have taken root within my soul, and I am passionate about these things. To God be the glory!