Forgive me for pro-longing our meeting. I’ve spent so many years looking at women in such an unhealthy way that it’s no wonder God kept us apart. You are His daughter…why would any Father want to give his daughter to someone who dishonors and mistreats women for his own selfish reasons? He held us back from meeting each other for our own good.
I’ve spent many nights looking for false ways to relate to women. Whether it was in a bar, a club, or over the Internet, the emptiness inside me was always an indication that my ways of trying to find a meaningful relationship were backwards and immature, yet they were evident.
How I used such excuses: “I was afraid you’d reject me”, “I’m not good enough”, “and I’ll only hurt you” to name a few. The truth of the matter is that being selfless means walking over and saying “Hi” to you. It means taking the action to get to know you and what you’re all about. It’s about getting to know your heart, passions, interests in life, and sharing in your love for God. I’m learning that I have to take a chance and risk exposing my heart to you, something I’ve never been very good at but I’m learning how to with Jesus’ help. I’m learning to look beyond what you are on the outside, that you’re even more beautiful on the inside.
You’re a woman, God’s daughter, beautiful inside and out. God created you and called you “very good”. You are fearfully and wonderfully made. Never let anyone tell you differently. You have gifts, talents, and abilities that I look forward to discovering along with you.
I don’t want to carry my past into our relationship. I don’t want one bit of my past to be a hindrance for us. I don’t want to hide anything from you; I want our relationship to be open, honest, and full of communication. I want to spend time with you and really get to know you…I long to have your hand in mine while we’re walking. I long to sit with you and look at you…I can talk with you, I can touch you; you’re real. I want to go out and have so much fun with you…I want to do all kinds of things with you…our relationship should be full of life and adventure. Understand that I’m not the type of guy who just wants to sit around all the time…we’re gonna have fun so you better get ready…it might get a little dangerous!
Please hang in there while God continues to work on me. I have such an intense desire to meet you and get to know you; you have no idea. I’m still working through these habits but I’m a better person than I was before and God is preparing me to be the best boyfriend/husband I can be to you.