I have experienced this same type of defeat over and over. I was so sick of my sin that I wanted to die. In fact I was so grieved that I begged God to just kill. In spite of this I continued to sin.

My continual sin of p & m was not the problem but the result. As you indicated the addictions suffered by these men were not the problem but the result of a much greater problem.

I absolutely believe that the reason that Christians continue to sin is because Jesus Christ is not the Lord of their lives. Jesus is their Savior but not their Lord. Until we are willing to be slaves to Christ we will not discover the glorious freedom and joy and peace and power that is ours.

Isn’t it remarkable that we could trust Jesus with our souls but not with our lives? We trust Jesus with our eternity but will not trust Him with ours today. I’m not condemning anyone but rather looking at this as one of you.  After all I spent 30 years imprisoned in an addiction to p & m.  Sixteen of those 30 years were after I asked Jesus to be my Savior.

During those sixteen years I tried everything. The problem just got worse. I wondered why the WORD of God had no power for me. My emotions concerning this were completely out of control that I thought at times that my heart would explode. I was so desperate to escape that I was willing to die. I had no hope.

Then one day, completely broken, I asked Jesus to be Lord of my life not just my Savior. I was willing to do whatever He wanted me to do. I was willing to become a slave of Jesus Christ. Finally my willingness to follow Christ was greater than any fear I had.

This my dear brothers is the key to FREEDOM, FREEDOM IN CHRIST. Yes, freedom is found in complete submission to the Lordship of Jesus Christ. This is the irony and mystery of God. Slavery to Christ is Freedom, freedom in a way that is beyond our understanding and comprehension. Our God has such a glorious life awaiting us and it is found in submission to His will. Brothers, I leave you with this word from my LORD and Savior, Jesus Christ.

John 15  

The Vine and the Branches

1 “I am the true vine, and my Father is the gardener. 2 He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes so that it will be even more fruitful. 3 You are already clean because of the word I have spoken to you. 4 Remain in me, and I will remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me. 5 “I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. 6 If anyone does not remain in me, he is like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked up, thrown into the fire and burned. 7 If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you. 8 This is to my Father’s glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples. 9 “As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love. 10 If you obey my commands, you will remain in my love, just as I have obeyed my Father’s commands and remain in his love. 11 I have told you this so that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be complete. 12 My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you. 13 Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends. 14 You are my friends if you do what I command. 15 I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master’s business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you. 16 You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you to go and bear fruit–fruit that will last. Then the Father will give you whatever you ask in my name. 17 This is my command: Love each other.

Spiritual Nourishment helps with stress

  • We need to

    • Talk with our families – tell them about our daily stresses, pain, etc!

    • Talk with our friends – We need a support network of people who care!

    • or write our brothers in the FIC group

Consider the choice of spiritual water we have in the following two verses

  • John 4:10 Jesus answered her, “If you knew the gift of God and who it is that asks you for a drink, you would have asked him and he would have given you living water.”

  • Jeremiah 2:13 “My people have committed two sins: They have forsaken me, the spring of living water, and have dug their own cisterns, broken cisterns that cannot hold water.


  • Isaiah 55:1-2  1 “Come, all you who are thirsty, come to the waters; and you who have no money, come, buy and eat! Come, buy wine and milk without money and without cost.  2  Why spend money on what is not bread, and your labor on what does not satisfy? Listen, listen to me, and eat what is good, and your soul will delight in the richest of fare.